Oh girl with beautiful eyes and beautiful face,
Be gentle, what you're holding is actually my heart..
The mistress of my eyes, Alone in pristine skies,
How can I tell you what I feel for you?
When I think of you my feelings twist inside.
You're the sun in my sky,
The wind that takes me where I want to go,
The sweet incense that makes me feel so high
That loving you seems all I need to know.
Every day I find I'm thinking of you,
Which makes me hope we walk in the same way.
Some night, perhaps, we'll go hang out somewhere;
I will reach for you, and you'll be there.
My mood is like a cloudy noon
Waiting for the sun,
I fidget in my emptiness,
Not knowing where to run;
The days I spent with you are like a tape;
I play, rewind, play, rewind, and play.
Your eyes won't let my thoughts go back to sleep;
Although I look for you in every doorway.
Life's become too average,
I'm lost in the normality,
Without you by my side, such has become my reality.
No matter what our troubles, I still love you,
As though a part of me were also you.
Life isn't easy, but I know without you
There will be bitterness in all I do.
Thursday 8 July 2010
Movies Music and Emotions
There is a reason we all love movies and there is a reason the movie makers are such a good money makers. Sometimes, there are certain moments in my life, which when happened, I wished some lovely music played in the background, just the way it happens in the movies.
Like for example, when I am angry on someone, or pissed off at someone, I would like the Beethoven music to be playing in the background. While I walk in the dark, when no one is around, I would like for some haunting music to be played, at least that way I would get to know if a ghost really exists in life. And at times, during those instances, the ones that make love overflow in eyes, I wish certain romantic songs played too. Not to forget, during those highly entertaining and joyful periods, I wish Nakka Mukka played automatically too.
Actually, when you think about it, if you happen to notice, almost for all the kind of emotions we could possibly go through, there has been a song made about it. Thanks to India cinema, the music makes the soul rejoice in those moments, be it the loving ones or the dreaded ones, soul kinda resonates to the music. Strange, but true.
Half way through writing this post, I almost forgot the intention of me wanting to write this post. I guess that was the after effect of of listening to the music while I was writing the post. Sometimes, we tend to, actually, all the time, we tend to listen to wild songs when we are wanting to be adventurous, guys like me listen to hard rock music or real heavy metal or super fast dance track numbers from apun ka Bollywood. Now that is exactly the reason I have specific playlists on my ipod. At the start of the day, I listen to fast music, trying to set a pace for the day and as I get back to home, I listen to soothing songs, trying to calm my mechanic mind.
It is just amazing how our mind finds the song to suit our mood. I wish there was a picture on how mind finds the song, I am sure it is that gland that's present in the skull. Few hours back, I was going through some thoughts that kind of made me emotionally unstable, yepp, I was emotionally unstable and all of a sudden, I remembered the song and searched for it in my ipod. Could not find it and I began growing restless. I knew it was there on it. I wondered how come I could not find it. Just to cross check, I checked my mobile and see if it was there on the memory card and to be elated joy, I found it. Five minutes later, I was all relaxed. Now I wish I could say what the song was, but if I did, then there would be no joy.
Not really sure how others are but somehow, I have gotten used to music to calm the storm within me under certain circumstances.
Aah music, you are one of the very vital parts of my existence.
Like for example, when I am angry on someone, or pissed off at someone, I would like the Beethoven music to be playing in the background. While I walk in the dark, when no one is around, I would like for some haunting music to be played, at least that way I would get to know if a ghost really exists in life. And at times, during those instances, the ones that make love overflow in eyes, I wish certain romantic songs played too. Not to forget, during those highly entertaining and joyful periods, I wish Nakka Mukka played automatically too.
Actually, when you think about it, if you happen to notice, almost for all the kind of emotions we could possibly go through, there has been a song made about it. Thanks to India cinema, the music makes the soul rejoice in those moments, be it the loving ones or the dreaded ones, soul kinda resonates to the music. Strange, but true.
Half way through writing this post, I almost forgot the intention of me wanting to write this post. I guess that was the after effect of of listening to the music while I was writing the post. Sometimes, we tend to, actually, all the time, we tend to listen to wild songs when we are wanting to be adventurous, guys like me listen to hard rock music or real heavy metal or super fast dance track numbers from apun ka Bollywood. Now that is exactly the reason I have specific playlists on my ipod. At the start of the day, I listen to fast music, trying to set a pace for the day and as I get back to home, I listen to soothing songs, trying to calm my mechanic mind.
It is just amazing how our mind finds the song to suit our mood. I wish there was a picture on how mind finds the song, I am sure it is that gland that's present in the skull. Few hours back, I was going through some thoughts that kind of made me emotionally unstable, yepp, I was emotionally unstable and all of a sudden, I remembered the song and searched for it in my ipod. Could not find it and I began growing restless. I knew it was there on it. I wondered how come I could not find it. Just to cross check, I checked my mobile and see if it was there on the memory card and to be elated joy, I found it. Five minutes later, I was all relaxed. Now I wish I could say what the song was, but if I did, then there would be no joy.
Not really sure how others are but somehow, I have gotten used to music to calm the storm within me under certain circumstances.
Aah music, you are one of the very vital parts of my existence.
Saturday 3 July 2010
Moments of love
I was standing there. Wind was blowing with a gushing sound in my ears, accompanied by the soothing sound of the waves hitting the shore. It was dark, very dark. All I could see was the moon, the distant moon. I fold my arms, stand firm, trying to hold my ground, and fighting a battle of unspoken kind with the wind. I look into the ocean. There was something in it. The darkness of the ocean at night, with the waves hitting the shore. I continue looking into the ocean. Thoughts come crashing on me. Several of them. I look at the moon. Full moon. It reminded me of something. That thought dug many more, and as I continue to think, a drop rolled out of my eye. Controlling a tempest within, staying calm on the outer surface, heart began pounding. And I continued living in my thoughts.
In that darkness of the ocean, the sky, and few glittering stars and a moon, many flashes occur. Instant flashes. All that has happened in my life that has changed th course of my life, several turning points. As I begin to think about them, I begin to feel lonely. Standing alone in the dark night was never scary but that night, I was lonely.
I remember the moment when I was going to office. I was sitting in the front seat of the office cab, and watched a couple going in front of our vehicle. They were on a two wheeler, I guess they were married. She was sitting at the back, and held on to the arm of her husband. She had an arm to hold onto. He had someone to protect. There was an unspoken but yet a visible bond between both of them. I smiled at them as my cab went pass them, an acknowledgment to a bond that they had and I was yet to have. As I continue to think about that moment, all of a sudden, I think of another thing. A friend of mine loved a girl a lot, and he was upset that she never loved him back the same way as he did. I remembered telling him
"You have to let her be. Even if it hurts. Because, true love hurts. If you love her, you gotta support her no matter what because the strength in your love must overcome your pain. Just like that story of a boy and the caterpillar he raised. When the caterpillar turned into a butterfly and yearned for the world outside, the boy had to let it go despite the pain. Because he knows that if the butterfly truly loves him back, it will surely come back. Love is about forgetting oneself and thinking of that special someone. Wait for her if you still love her. If she does not... then let it be and let time heal the wounds... but always know that forgiveness is the key to healing the scars., "
All of a sudden, if not similar situation, I find myself in that place, where all that I can do is wait. It is great a thing, for it lets me to connect with myself. A year back, I used to smoke a pack of 20 cigarettes in a day and have alcohol every weekend. A year back I was an addict to junk food and was not serious about life. But now, a year later, I have successfully quit smoking, haven't had alcohol for over 6 months and have become serious about my health. This I did, only for her. Some people ridicule me saying how can you do all this, I said, she never asked me to. I did it willingly. It is my way of expressing how important she is to me and what I am willing to do to keep her happy.
It is this thought that reminds me of talking to a friend of mine and telling him how I feel.. To him, I said, " I begin my day looking at her, and wishing and praying that her day goes well and end my day hoping that her had had gone well and she sleeps without a problem. Every time I look at her, I live a lifetime of happiness. Every time I wish and pray for her, I live a lifetime of content. Every time I hope for her, I live a lifetime of smile on my face. I love her just by looking at her. I love her just by looking at her."
Random thoughts continue to pop up, frozen moments begin to melt. Tempests begin within and yet, I remain standing there, looking at the ocean, It is at this time that I remember what I once read, which I felt is the right thing to say..
Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you."
In that darkness of the ocean, the sky, and few glittering stars and a moon, many flashes occur. Instant flashes. All that has happened in my life that has changed th course of my life, several turning points. As I begin to think about them, I begin to feel lonely. Standing alone in the dark night was never scary but that night, I was lonely.
I remember the moment when I was going to office. I was sitting in the front seat of the office cab, and watched a couple going in front of our vehicle. They were on a two wheeler, I guess they were married. She was sitting at the back, and held on to the arm of her husband. She had an arm to hold onto. He had someone to protect. There was an unspoken but yet a visible bond between both of them. I smiled at them as my cab went pass them, an acknowledgment to a bond that they had and I was yet to have. As I continue to think about that moment, all of a sudden, I think of another thing. A friend of mine loved a girl a lot, and he was upset that she never loved him back the same way as he did. I remembered telling him
"You have to let her be. Even if it hurts. Because, true love hurts. If you love her, you gotta support her no matter what because the strength in your love must overcome your pain. Just like that story of a boy and the caterpillar he raised. When the caterpillar turned into a butterfly and yearned for the world outside, the boy had to let it go despite the pain. Because he knows that if the butterfly truly loves him back, it will surely come back. Love is about forgetting oneself and thinking of that special someone. Wait for her if you still love her. If she does not... then let it be and let time heal the wounds... but always know that forgiveness is the key to healing the scars., "
All of a sudden, if not similar situation, I find myself in that place, where all that I can do is wait. It is great a thing, for it lets me to connect with myself. A year back, I used to smoke a pack of 20 cigarettes in a day and have alcohol every weekend. A year back I was an addict to junk food and was not serious about life. But now, a year later, I have successfully quit smoking, haven't had alcohol for over 6 months and have become serious about my health. This I did, only for her. Some people ridicule me saying how can you do all this, I said, she never asked me to. I did it willingly. It is my way of expressing how important she is to me and what I am willing to do to keep her happy.
It is this thought that reminds me of talking to a friend of mine and telling him how I feel.. To him, I said, " I begin my day looking at her, and wishing and praying that her day goes well and end my day hoping that her had had gone well and she sleeps without a problem. Every time I look at her, I live a lifetime of happiness. Every time I wish and pray for her, I live a lifetime of content. Every time I hope for her, I live a lifetime of smile on my face. I love her just by looking at her. I love her just by looking at her."
Random thoughts continue to pop up, frozen moments begin to melt. Tempests begin within and yet, I remain standing there, looking at the ocean, It is at this time that I remember what I once read, which I felt is the right thing to say..
Because of you
my world is now whole,
Because of you
love lives in my soul.
Because of you
I have laughter in my eyes,
Because of you
I am no longer afraid of good-byes.
You are my pillar
my stone of strength,
With me through all seasons
and great times of length.
My love for you is pure
boundless through space and time,
it grows stronger everyday
with the knowledge that you'll always be mine.
At the altar
I will joyously say 'I do',
for I have it all now
and it's all because of you."
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)