Monday 19 January 2009

Note sure what I should name this post.

I wake up as early as I can and as one of the resolutions I made up for this year, I workout as there is so much of weight I need to get rid off. I read the newspaper, watch news for a while, listen to some songs, have a shower, get ready to go to work, travel to work, work, come from work, refresh myself, have dinner, and begin writing before I go unconscious.

Yeah, that pretty much sums up my day. I have been trying to understand when my schedule can be as hectic as I said ( I am sure most of us have the same kind of schedule), how do I get crowded with thoughts that I cannot control. In midst of people and friends, I am lonely. While I am alone, I am amidst thousands of thoughts.

To begin with, I cannot be egoistic person for ego is something that does not fit in my skill set. As a result, most of my friends tell me that I dont have an attitude. I mean, do I really need to have an attitude of what people expect of me or do I need to have an attitude that I am comfortable having? For long, I have been quite in not knowing what I should say, but I guess, I now know the answer. I dont want anyone else make decisions for me for I want to make my own luck.

People have a feeling of insecurity and they either do not want to lose or give up for what they are insecure of is what they probably love the most. I have the same as well. I have seen most of the people take random decisions or panic or destroy what they have earned in their life. I mean, come on.. Why would you want to destroy what you have struggled to achieve? Why panic just because some unforeseen situation came which caught you unprepared? i ask this question because I did the same and now I wonder if it is a human trait to be so. I thought a lot about this and I made up my mind. Come what may, if ever I stand in another situation of insecurity, I can either take it up and fight it and overcome it or I can divert my mind into something else. I choose the former of the options for I am comfortable talking about my weakness and learning to overcome it.

1 comment:

Naveed said...

It happens to each and every one of us. When you think about what all you did at the end of the day, it does not sum up and it does not make sense at all. Atleast ten times we wish we had more time. But how you balance your life during those 'busy' hours is what makes you a good person, a good friend, a good employee (dont laugh at the good employee thing lol).