Mother..

No one could ever define the true meaning of mother for every definition falls short of the real meaning of Mother. Wikipedia says mother is a female parent of an offspring. But we all know that a mother is much more than that. The gestation period of various animals have various periods but for humans, it is of 9 months. The amount of time a baby is in a mother's womb, is what determines how intelligent the offspring turns out to be.

For me, a mother is a source of inspiration. A symbol of life and god for in mythology God could give life, but in reality, a mother gives life to a new born baby. She cares with all her mind body and soul and never once wishes ill for the offspring. She nurtures, teaches, inculcates values into a person. If it werent for the mother, there would be no socialized life for manners are learnt by the lessons a mother teaches.

Mother, sweet mother, what will we be, if it were not for the hard work and labour you went through during our infancy. In Hindus, there is a saying that if you get a chance to donate your blood to your Mother in times of need, you would be the most luckiest person on the earth for you would be able to clear of your gratitude, but I would feel that giving every organ for her life would still be insufficient.

GOD made a wonderful mother,
A mother who never grows old;
He made her smile of the sunshine,
And He molded her heart of pure gold;
In her eyes He placed bright shining stars,
In her cheeks, fair roses you see;
God made a wonderful mother,
And He gave that dear mother to me.

Note sure what I should name this post.

I wake up as early as I can and as one of the resolutions I made up for this year, I workout as there is so much of weight I need to get rid off. I read the newspaper, watch news for a while, listen to some songs, have a shower, get ready to go to work, travel to work, work, come from work, refresh myself, have dinner, and begin writing before I go unconscious.

Yeah, that pretty much sums up my day. I have been trying to understand when my schedule can be as hectic as I said ( I am sure most of us have the same kind of schedule), how do I get crowded with thoughts that I cannot control. In midst of people and friends, I am lonely. While I am alone, I am amidst thousands of thoughts.

To begin with, I cannot be egoistic person for ego is something that does not fit in my skill set. As a result, most of my friends tell me that I dont have an attitude. I mean, do I really need to have an attitude of what people expect of me or do I need to have an attitude that I am comfortable having? For long, I have been quite in not knowing what I should say, but I guess, I now know the answer. I dont want anyone else make decisions for me for I want to make my own luck.

People have a feeling of insecurity and they either do not want to lose or give up for what they are insecure of is what they probably love the most. I have the same as well. I have seen most of the people take random decisions or panic or destroy what they have earned in their life. I mean, come on.. Why would you want to destroy what you have struggled to achieve? Why panic just because some unforeseen situation came which caught you unprepared? i ask this question because I did the same and now I wonder if it is a human trait to be so. I thought a lot about this and I made up my mind. Come what may, if ever I stand in another situation of insecurity, I can either take it up and fight it and overcome it or I can divert my mind into something else. I choose the former of the options for I am comfortable talking about my weakness and learning to overcome it.

2009 begins..

I sit to write things down.. Things that happened, continue to happen. In last few days, many memories were made, to cherish for rest of my life. Many things were done, many places visited. It has been a great vacation so far, and there are hardly few things to complain about.

Koushik's visit to Bangalore did create new memories.. Indeed, it was a refreshing experience so far. Dumma was excited to see us in Chennai and we had a great time celebrating the New Year's eve on a beach. With champagne and lots of alcohol, my friends did have a great time. I must say, I did not miss alcohol at all. I am glad I have stopped having it for over a year now.

As I woke up to a terrifying dream, my first reaction was to call. But somehow, something in me, made me resent it. As I began to refresh myself, the dream kept haunting me. It kept my heart pounding and wanting to feel relaxed.

Like two faces of a coin, on one hand, I am very ambitious and caring and optimisitc and good hearted guy, but on the other, I am now quite an insecure person with too many thoughts and unwanted ocnclusions for the same concept.

In year 2009, I want to change everything in me. This is where I start this year.